pinch me! :)

pinch me!
is it REAL?
always expect unexpected..true..true..true..
you are right.. whatever happens..its for good.. (mostly)
everything is just so perrrrfect..just perrrfect.. TOUCH WOOD! :)
its like a fairy tale..i am living my dream.. i am seeing it, still yet to believe it..
i respect and love you even more...and yes..i trust you :)
everything seems sooooo beautiful..so lovable..
m full of positivity...i can't stop smiling :) its coz of you..
i want to paint the town red..i want to fly...
" dil kerta hai..tu hai yahan to..jata lamha tham jaye..
waqt ka dariya bahte-bahte is manzer main jam jaye.."
God if you r listening i want to "thank" you for all this goodness..

Dreamy Reality :)

Ahh! freshhh... dis is what came to my mind when i smelled you last night...still i can..
when you touched my wet face.. i can still feel your finger on my face...wiping off the drops so tenderly.. looking at me so dearly...that you are saying i have been waiting for you..
i ambled over to you.. trying to believe that yea m here... close to you.. felt your warmness..
dim soothing light... soft sound of music.. breezy-brezzy all around... it felt as if whole ambience was infused with 'love'..
dont know when i fell asleep holding your hand.. and when i woke up; i culdnt stop adoring you while you were asleep..your calm face.. incredible!
i wanna hold dis moment forever.....
now m feeling as if i just woke up from a beautiful dream... it was real though dreamy.. perfect and precious! just loved it..loved it sooovery much.. : )

Lovely Prelude!

18th Nov. 2002 when we met first time face to face ;how do i give words to that unforgettable first date..... a sublime...divine and idyllic union... a true meeting of two bodies, minds and souls... i was lost in your dewy hazel sparkling eyes... n still m absorbed in them : ) love i feel for you is a driving force that knows no boundaries... meeting you was my life-transforming dhak-dhak moment..i cherish it n wanna relive it...

what a lovely prelude! awwwh..

1st Ride On 2nd Date!

I respect him..more than anyone...dont know if he is aware about it or not..but i want him to know that how much i respect him..

reason to start blogging was > that i wanted to write our story...as true as life..as pure as sunshine...as innocent as a new born baby.

he is a very different person...in so many ways..yeah he is. not because i love him HE IS actually different.

i have been writing about T&T ( this n that) in my blog ..i have been writing randomly.. every time i wanted to write about us..i felt i m not that good at writing..i might not do justice to its purity. but its only he 'n' me who can describe it the best..not any professional.

This is our 2nd meeting...

10th of dec.2002, ansal plaza,khel gaon marg,new delhi.

he had a exam and after that we decided to meet there. i got ready quickly told mum that i m going for tuition...she never saw me like this before( she is jus going for tuition? or sumthing else?)..my 'lit' up eyes...my smile which i was not able to hide..just before stepping out i ran to the mirror again to have a look if m looking okkkk enough to meet him.. ( yeah! m ready to gooo..)

i went to the auto stand..there was no auto...no bus..no public transport? than i came to know today is transport strike : ( i dint want to get late..what do i do now? i cant ask my brother to drop me there.. how do i tell him that i will be late coz of this stupid transport strike...( we dint have mobile phones that time..) i saw a crowded R.T.V mini bus..i just got into that..n reached moolchand..now from there i ran..ran..ran...till ansal plaza...i was sweating in mid december ..

he was waiting for me outside MAC wondering if i m coming or not? ahh! here he is..waiting since long...my heart beat was dhuk-dhuk-dhuk-dhuk..so fast..whn i saw him..sweetheart!..truly..

we sat inside had burger n coke..his friends were also there on the different table...he was a bit conscious coz of them...i culdn't tell u guys..how was i feeling...so shy..so happy...and yes conscious too :p ..he was just smiling sweetly oblivious of the fact how much m crazy for him..

we chatted like innocent teeny boppers newly in love : ) excited n charged up to conquer the world...we roamed here n there...talking..blushing...

it was time to go...as it was a transport strike i culdn't go on my own...he gave me a lift..na-na my home was not on his way...he had to go opposite side to drop me...and he was not well aware of those roads...it was a different route for him..still he dropped me on his scooter...i wanted to hug him tight but...i was still shy to do that..we stopped at pushp vihar red signal i got down..looking at him...he whispered 'i love you' ohhh!!! dint want to go away from him..but have to....to meet him again...cant find any sleep anymore... " when u r in love; u cant sleep coz, reality is better thn ur dreams." thinking about him all night...wondering if he is also thinking about me! if yes than wot is it?

memories! so beautiful... always freshhh as dew drops.. even while writing about them i am tickled again...feeling 16 again..( hehehe..jus feeling 16 not looking 16 nemore..)

someone has said...we r given: two hands to hold,two legs to walk,two eyes to see,two ears to listen. but why only one heart? because the other was given to someone else. for us to find. and i have found, and lost mine....( lucky me! )

yess my heart is not there ...its with him now....forever....... : )

m smiling : )

lalalalalaaaaaaaa heyheyheyyyyyyyy....

tananananaaaa...

i wanna sing.........

i wanna dance... dhik-chik-dhik-chik....

why? just like that ; )

someone's smile can make u smile : ) can make u dance..can make u sing too! lalalalalaaaaaa

heeehhehehehehehehe... u know i was missing him since so many days..i met him today.. n just feeling SO good.. wanted to hug him tight n close but culdn't do that coz it was a public place ;-/

he is the one who really keeps me going... wait wait..let me just share sumthing ..i wrote to him..

i know its not tht gr8 so what?

u r my fuel to keep me going..

ur friendship is my strength..

whn u r happy i blossom from inside..

whn u r there life seems bright..

its actually so true..ammm i wish i culd be wid him always... nothing like being wid him..his presense is so charming..mmm i just love him ya...

( and yes..that pic is not mine m not tht photogenic..hehehe..)

Makes me feel like a "Princess"

Love rules the world!
its a mysterious feeling leaves us amazed.
when he said these words to me; i couldn't stop wondering :-
# i wanted to say u from all my true heart that u r the best thing ever happened to me. i love being wid u. i feel proud!

# u r the only thing m proud of having. what u have done for me is something i can do for no one.

# when m with u, i feel like being on top of the world. blessed ...confident ... important... needed... thanks for everything... ******

# knowing someone must be waiting for me is a pleasure.
knowing someone must be expecting my message is my pride.
knowing that someone is no other than u - its my treasure.
( after reading dis sms my smile : ) touched my eyes)


# locked in my heart >> let me spend untill i can afford. tomorrow is so uncertain. you are the purest thing happen to me after my family. financially i have always been tight n m so kanjoos when its with u. i wanna treat u like a 'Princess' but thats just a dream. but we will go for dinner at a 5 star***** someday thats a promise!
{ you already made me feel like a PRINCESS : ) }

Nothing Can Beat A First Date ; )

date: 18-11-02

venue: odeon, c.p

what should i wear? which colour will look good on me? this one? no-no this one... finally i picked up black ( known as fool proof ) i think its perfect....hmmm m ready to gooooooo... exxxxxcited??obviously!

damn! auto-auto... yaar in sabko wahan jane main problem kya hai? ek hi answer... bohot duuuuuurrr hai madam... finally i got into a auto.. he was driving okay but it was very slow for me...i think m gonna be late for sure..my first 'date' of my entire life...n look at me i am terribely late... but finally i reached late hi sahi..~~ wow!! here he is wwooww...

i saw his first glimpse ; ) cuuuuuuutie.... very close to my imagination... green jacket...sweet smile on his face..my love...coming towards me... he was sure its me..

he told me he saw my hands first....nnnnn...he liked 'em :-*

he really waited long for me... ( ye to shuruaat hai) hehehe.. "jeena sirf mere liye" our first movie.. show shuru hone main abhi time hai..lets just roam around..we were talking n blushing at d same time..we were both bachhas yaar.. suddenly he asked me to call his name..he just wanted to reassure i am d same gurl he speaks to.. i called his name~ ***** n he was smiling .. so sweet!! i was still trying to believe i am actually meeting him... we got gifts for each other..we exchanged 'em..lovely! i love them..my most precious ones..

everytime i looked at him he was looking at me wid a smile...i was too nervous n excited at d same time.. dont know what he is thinking of me...he liked me?..say sumthing na.. hmmm movie is over... we r just chilling n roaming on d roads.. nice sunny day.. it was going smooth n suddenly we were surrounded with hijras ...damn!! they just started...wahh! kya jodi..tumahri jodi bane rahe...n so on....i was scared..he just handled d situation somehow.. wot a relief. being a boy he ought to do that..hahahaha.. i just took advantedge ;-* i was a bit scared of my big brother as it was possible that he sees me there with him..he is not cool about it : ( specially if its me.. but nothing happened like dat.. i was happy.

it was a blush-blush meeting..for both of us..

kaise samjhaon tumhe...

mera pahla pahla pyaar hai ye..

i went back home with a smiling face..tickling heart.. too many questions in my mind.. what he thinks about me? he likes me? list goes on n on..

i was desperate to reach home just dying to speak to him.. what will he say? hmm its his call i know... yesssssss he liked me... he said nice things about me : ) n i was just too relaxed n happy to know that.. somebody's views about me dint matter so much before.. but now it does.. dis is a different world now.. i told him how much i liked him how close he was to my imagination.. how much i am absorbed in his thoughts day n night..he has become my DESIRE...my DREAM..my GUY.. life is beautiful..

perfect stranger

It was an usual evening of 21st august 2002 ...

my cousin came to my house..we were just chatting about things...movies,friends,school,internet..then she told me that she doesnt have an e-mail id yet...n dont even know how to chat on messenger...

hhmmm..even i was not so regular with surfing or chatting...but i dint show that to her...i said letz go to a cyber cafe then... (yup i dint have net @ home that time ; ) ..
so here it is..i logged in from my yahoo id... entered delhi global chat room.... msg windows here n there...msgs were just popping up one after another... most of them just hogged up like they never chatted wid a gurl before...ahh..finally we chose one guy wid a decent id. he just said a simple hi...n we began to chat.. unknown of the fact that life will never be same again...
after that normal a/s/l session we chatted for a while .. when we were about to leave he dropped his fon no on d chatting window...
i was returning home wid my cousin... she asked will u call him? it was an prompt answer - naah.. u mad ? but sumwhr in my heart i was planning to call him...may be i wanted to talk to him when i m alone... ;p
as soon as we reached she said m dialing his no...i just smiled in confusion... he said Hello! owwwwwwww my god..... i just loved his voice...
he was sounding adorable n cute n soooooo on... we talked for lil time.. n his door bell rang..
he said papa aa gaye i will talk to u later.. n hanged up : (
hhmm confusion confusion... why m feeling so restless ya? it was just a guy i chatted wid...
why m behaving like a weirdo******** god knows!!
neways....
now its me alone... who has to take the initiative to contact... ofcourse i dint give him my fon no yet.... though i liked him the way he was sounding....ummm.. nice guy!! i told myself : )
i went to the cyber cafe next day same time.... to find him ... to chat with him.. to know him better... but... i was not tht smart after all..as i showed it to my cousin... i dint know about adding friends in messenger... i was wondering how to find him in so many ids there in chat room... how dumb i was...
n suddenly a msg window popped up....oww here he is... my smile was touching my eyes.....i was so happpppppy as if i have found a fortune..... $$$$$$$********
i started calling him everyday....
the cafe owner was glad to find a religious customer...widout missing a day i used to chat wid him... till the time he is not online i used to read his old mails....again...again...n again....
finally i gave him my contact no too... my greed to listen to him more often ; )
it was all so magical.....that i dint notice that i am madly in love with him... wow!

i never used to feel like dis before... never used to dream wid wide open eyes... never used to think about someone alllllll d time...never used to be so crazzy..
n how about him??
this question to myself was enough to skip a heart beat...
does he loves me too?
what if he dsnt? nooooooooooo!!!
he does...he does....
he likes me i know....
his mails r indicating that...i culd sense when he is smiling cutely...he used to like d way i used to call his name... i dint know wht was so unusual in tht....but i was tickled in my heart ~
days!!

his flirty chat just woooooed me... it was him all d time on my mind..

eager to hear tht long fon ring trrrrrrrring.... widout caller id i knew its his call.. hahaha

its november 2002 already ... third month... n we hvnt meet yet... m just after him to meet but he has just one thing to say ~ milenge-milenge dont worry.. ; )

arrre but when? aur kitna wait yaar? dont u wanna meet me? dont wanna see me?

i just cant wait anymore.....

dying to see u now...............

finally one fine day~~~ he AGREED : )