I Love You...

When i met u; i understood the meaning of love...before seeing ur face i started fantasizing about u...ur voice was enough to make me fall in love wid u...n top of that other strong emotions added...when i felt ur warm..tender..loving touch..it gives me goosebumps..ur pleasant smell.. its absorbed in me..gaze of ur hazel brown sparkling eyes..ur talks..ur thoughts..ur feelings..ur emotions..ur different moods..ur shyness..ur naughtyness i m in love wid every bit of u..every part of u..since forever..n i have no control over it..seriously!
have never thought about anyone..never felt for anyone..the way i feel for u...what all i want to do is make u smile...coz when u smile by default i smile...so m quite selfish! basically i get a kick which keeps me going carefree when u smile..when u sound happy..when u sound excited.. whenever this fear mounts on me that u might go away...trust me; its like i culdnt function properly..my body, mind, heart.. i lose control over me..i dont know if m able to express my feelings correctly but sumhow m feeling m still not able to express how much scared i m... thought of a life widout u makes me feel like a orphan..who has absolutely noone..who's presense or absense doesn't make any difference to anyone.. i don't want to bound u.. but i want u to know that i can die for u..any moment its required..but i can't live like a normal person widout u.. i have tried ..i have tried my best my all..but i culd not...trust me! whenever i tried; i found myself more closer to u... i don't see my existence widout u.. i am not saying that u shuld not love anyone... i am just saying let me love u.. i wont recognize me if u r not in me.. u r a permanent unditachable loving fact of my life...ur love is my true treasure..n i m very possasively selfish abt it..may be i m sounding like a paranoid..i dnt mind tht..i dont wanna live widout it.. let me be wid it..i am charmed...forever..
P.S. I love you..

B! my Velentine : )

Happy Valentine's Day B : )
whenever we r together its my valentine's day...i dont need to wait for 14th feb to express love for you..but i love to say that I Love You B... so i take dis oppurtunity to say it again I Love You.. I Love You.. I Love You... sosososososososoooooooooooooooooo muchhh n more.... always.. 365 days in a year and all years of my life... and i know dahling u love me too ;p.. when u asked me - be my valentine? i was on cloud 9 .. swear!! m always ur valentine sweetheart..
each moment spent wid u i cherish...thinking of u makes me smile..ur touches makes me feel m b'ful :D.. u have made me feel complete..made my life b'ful...it feels like i know u since forever..and forever... u r most precious to me... m proud m ur girlfriend : )
missing you my charmer...wanna hold u tight.. wanna see ur smile right now.. wanna look into ur eyes right now...wanna feel ur touch right now..wanna hear ur smooth voice which turns me on always right now ;p wanna be with u RIGHT NOW : ) i need my love dose abhi ke abhi..
" one thing u can be sure of; i dont need anything more than ur love.."

Soche Dil Ki Aisa Kash Ho..

Tujhko Ek Nazar Meri Talash ho..

Jaise Khwab Hain Aankhon Main Basse Meri..

Waise Neendon Pe Silvate Pade Teri....

life!

Trapped! between life and death...cant choose any of them..not able to live..not able to die either..god must be happy and laughing ...this is what he likes..to put us in such situations n enjoy...makes two people meet coincidently! make them fall in love...put all the bitter ingredients of life to pull them apart..but nurtureing the seed of love in their heart..it grows...grows..grows...it survived against all odds..now when its a whole tree of happy moments...bond of love...attachment..laugh...tears..one heartbeat in two bodies..care...concern...he suddenly pulls it out n try to plant it sumwhr else...it will die...slowly..it cant survive..
this is not life...saying positive things..giving lecture on life is so easy..but living such life is not possible..feeling the burn inside..feeling empty..aimless..lifeless..alone..hopeless! what is life? answer is simple - crying inside,smiling outside. meaningless!
life is just a ordeal..extreme opposite to what it used to be when .........
just waiting.. still hoping? y? god know!

B'ful Day!

You were d first one to wish me...and you are d only one for whom i was waiting...after tht it was a sleepless night...culdnt wait for d morning..which is obvious ;p got outta bed..got ready to meet you...it was a very new feeling..as if m going to see you first time..
that b'ful delicate gift just loved it!! i gotta experience metro ride first time tht too wid you..liked ur idea : ) n i enjoyed it thoroughly...sitting in middle of c.p. on a sunny day..just after d solar eclipse was over...nice view.. surrounded with white buildings...running vihicles...people...flying birds..n beating it all; your presense..so pleasant! so perfect!
dint know what we wanna talk..what shuld we talk..there was no need to bother..coz togetherness filled all d blanks...saying sumthing dint seem more important thn feeling n believing d precious togetherness..little loving touch of hands..your adoring eyes were saying it all. little outburst of stupid tears...tried to hold 'em in but...
loved you...loved standing so close to you...loved ur gaze..your protecting touch! made me feel important n loved.
you gifted me a beautiful day!
love you B..

Show Me A Way

we all need love....end of the day everyone wants love...we count our blessings based on how many people genuinely love us...aise to pata nai how many people r thr..friends...few relatives blah-blah...but m talking abt some very special people here...after lot of deep thoughts i felt there r four such people for whom i can actually die...and coz of these four people i cant think of dying...now i feel i am lucky in a certain way that i have these gems...but thn i feel bounded too coz whatever i will do that will affect thm also...n i dont want to give thm any pain atleast coz of me my actions...but keeping them happy means i cant do what i want to do wid my life...i dont know what to do...do what i want..or do what they want..if i do what they want; it requires lot of patience n courage, i will be a sad duckling all my life..n if i do what i want ;they will never forgive me...God! please show me a way..

Here u r 2010

sitting on d bed wid lappy on my lap...mum sleeping on my left side...i can hear music from outside courtesy neighbours : ) just wondering how people r so happy n celebrating new year...parties nd celebrations filled d cities...naa!! i dnt have ne problem wid tht...but yeah one gud thing abt dis new year celebration is people get a excuse to party...booze...dance..night out wid dear friends...gud na? wht else u can ask for...hhmmm nice nice!
i have no resolutions but i just make a wish dis year...tht i culd bring a smile on my loved ones face.. n hope tht i culd keep tht smile on... : )
let see wht 2010 brings wid it.. happy new year guys
to be true m scared!
feeling lost n lonely
ciao! gudnite.

m not able to handle dis phase..i want him to be d way he used to be wid me earlier..i wish i culd fast forward dis dry phase n see him laughing giggling again.. m missing his naughty talks..his warm touch..his charming smile...his smooth voice..please be back.. nothing seems alright... d soul is missing from everything... i m missing..i cnt find myself widout you. i wanna go out wid u... be wid u...i wanna see you...i wanna listen to u...i wanna touch you...i wanna smell u....want to be absorbed in u forever..d way m absorbed in ur thoughts now... this is all i need from life.. this is all i need.

Annoying Quirks!

Heared dis ample of times ' variety is spice of life' but till what extent? what is d amplification of variety here? variety in food...variety in dressing...variety in other materialistic pleasure... but how about variety in lovers? not that being in love..but being wid lovers...girl n boy types love...how much necessary is it? what pleasure it gives?
i dont have a answer.. i just dont know!
but m sure i dont agree wid it n i dont identify wid it. i find it abhorring. may be m wrong.. but i find it unfair..
i m unable to express my disappointment...i am unable to express my heartburn..
some annoying quirks makes me feel insecure n possasive but my faith is alive...my trust is there...my love is intact..

Lovely Prelude!

18th Nov. 2002 when we met first time face to face ;how do i give words to that unforgettable first date..... a sublime...divine and idyllic union... a true meeting of two bodies, minds and souls... i was lost in your dewy hazel sparkling eyes... n still m absorbed in them : ) love i feel for you is a driving force that knows no boundaries... meeting you was my life-transforming dhak-dhak moment..i cherish it n wanna relive it...

what a lovely prelude! awwwh..