Quondam? Never..

I haven't got over it..
Coz some things are meant to be there forever..
Every-time my heart beats; it makes me feel your presence..
No matter what.. Love you more with every beat..

you make me feel beautiful or i am beautiful?
when you love me i feel beautiful.. inside!

Innocent Times

Wish we could go back in d time when getting high meant on a swing.
When drinking meant apple juice.
When dad was d only hero .
when love was mum’s hug.
When dad’s shoulder was d highest place on Earth.
When your worst enemies were your siblings.
When only thing that could hurt was wounded knees.
When d only things broken were toys.
When friends used you for nothing but borrowing pencils .
When goodbyes meant only till tomorrow.

Show Me Ur Soul..

he is curious (me too : )...he is intriguing...he is different..he is inquisitive like a kid..


he is free like a dove...he is a mystery to me.. though i know a lot..
but !!


i wanna know .. what is it he is looking for? i wanna give him all he wants.. but i dont know..
he has loved me a lot... in all possible ways.. touched my life.. pampered me.. been there..
shared lil things wid me.. but still i wanna know..

sometimes i feel i know it all..
sometimes i feel i know nothing at all.. tht too whn he tells me even things too small.. coz,
i go crazy when i see him taking interest in...
as in ..anyway!
what is it m lacking..i ask myself..
something for sure..
i cant do widout him..so i jus get insecure at times..
fear of losing him.... can't afford it.

in a world that can be so insane
i don't think it's very strange
into my life you were injected
not something that I expected
now I smile from your affection
we have made a soul connection
i am you, you're my best friend
show me your soul
in a world that can be so insane
i don't think it's very strange
yes, I find you so appealing
when you show me how you're feeling
you, my friend, should not be kneeling
open up and start revealing
trust in me my heart is sole
i need to see, show me your soul ( not my lyrics :P )

m i getting paranoid? may be! ( sounds so?)
but m not complaining.. m jus letting it flow out of my mind..
but still i know a lot ( more thn neone else in his life) .. it matters! m happy abt tht..
actually very happy!

Wondering..if..

thinking....thinking....and? thinking.........


thoughts come and go...some of' them we forget.. and some makes us forget everything else.





I am beginning to realize why parents find it tough to adjust to their ‘kids’ becoming thinking adults. the more I see the kids around me becoming men and women, the more it’s… sort of making me unsure of things.


now all of us, to some degree or the other, are gone. there are those who are not screwed up at all (if any), congratulations!! you may leave the blog right now ( hehehehe... as if i have any or so many readers.... stilll.. ) anyways! Sooner or later, most of us realize that too. now some of us might be interested in undoing some of the damage. but the big question is: what if beyond a point, the screwed-up-ness cannot be undone?


what if there is that critical point/moment where you realize you are gone and do something about it?


and WHAT if, that Point is already lost… way back sometime? what if, by the time, we grow up, we are already gone, that adulthood is simply spent caught fighting webs created well beyond our time of control ?


and to think that a lot of parents do things for the "benefit" of the child. yeah parents do their best always but according to their own correct way. but they r also human beings after all..they cant know OR understand their child's mind 'totally' always; or say, grown up's ; ) mind their choices, their priorities,their dreams,their............... T & T ( this n that)





hmmm...quiet complicated? i agree wid u.. but dis is wot it is/thats the way it is..





life is a reality but we cant stop dreaming.... dreaming of ? something or everything; dreaming of undoing the damage... dreaming of correcting mistakes we made..or dreaming wish i haven't done this... i dream too.. i wish if i...... ........ ....... ......... so many dash :D ha!ha! life would have been better. for sure. wondering!

heres sumthing i heared /liked /n wanna share>>

alice came to a fork in the road.


which road do I take? she asked.


where do you want to go? responded the cat.


i don't know, alice answered.


then, said the cat, it doesn't matter.
( got such a deep meaning. no? )

Bond That Bounds

Family! what is it which makes us love our family no matter what? what is it which holds us together? do we actually know the people whom we call our family ? is it just 'blood relation' which is so powerful that makes us love our family ( if at all).

Why we live with our family? is it just because we love them OR that's what we are supposed to do? if we love our family why brothers fight over property? why are sisters jealous of each other? everyone has a different reason ; or may be compulsion to live with family. will they really stand by you?

In animal world, there are no hard feelings when children go on their own path to make their own life. but in human world its not like that. parents get hurt if children decides to live their own life on their own terms. parents look after children and then children look after parents: is it natural? or we are forcing it?

If it should be okay for parents to "let go" of their children once they grow - and not interfere with their lives and not expect anything in return- is it also fair to assume that the parents then should live their own lives and perhaps cut us off the inheritance?

If we observe truly happy families; you will notice that in these families , people have some value to give each other. they dont talk in terms of sacrifice at all. they understand what needs to be done to keep their loved ones happy. loving someone because of blood relation is not simply enough. its 'understanding' each other which counts the most. all families have different levels of understanding thats why all families are different in dealing with their children and children dealing with their parents.

No Identity! No Problem?

Scared of being what you actually are?

Is it the main reason why people stick to anonymity on the internet?

Does anonymity gives access to people's innermost thoughts? which they might not reveal if they knew who i was? How do you know how people will react to what you say? Or you dont care how they will react or think of you as long as they dont know your identity?

Is it a preasumption that anonymity is what works with people on the internet?

Still dont know : (

if anonymity was really that big; social networking wouldn't be making such a BANG in global and indian cyberspace. Isn't it?

Internet opens plethora of possibilities >>> meet, mate, chat, catch up, show off, dating.. are among the most popular reasons why people like cyberspace. Addiction could be any and many like: gaming sites, social networking, dating sites, chatting, horoscope sites, business related sites, puzzal sites etc. etc. and biggest of them all >>> writing your thoughts and having people read and react ; )

"Its about drawing your own limits." Spending all your time on the NET on the cost of everything else is bad. "The moment you compromise on your day-to-day social life you know you are over doing it."

Coming back to the anonymity>> I still wonder how important it is? Should we bother " what will the world think of me" anymore. Its amazing to put forth your point and have many more responding to that point. Its interesting to see so many varied opinions people have. IT ALLOWS YOU, IF NEEDED, TO CHANGE YOUR THOUGHT PROCESS.

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Wicked Happiness!

All of us want to be happy and stay happy always... but how many of us are actually feel completely happy and satisfied? for a while everyone feels happy no doubts about that..but this happiness doesnt' lasts... why it happens? what is it which takes our happiness away?


how many of us promise ourselves that we'll be happy as soon as we achieve this or that success or get this or that material possession? and for how many years have we been convincing ourselves that the watering hole is just on the other side of sand dune? happiness is a human condition, created by human impulses, in a human brain. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT BUT COMPANIONSHIP IS QUIET A BASIC REQUIREMENT FOR MOST OF HUMANS TO BE HAPPY.


But if there is no happiness to be found through participation in society, and none found through asceticism.. than WHERE is it? perhaps happiness is a mirage we create for ourselves so we can strive for more...this unending desire provokes us to keep working for >>> Success/Money/Status/Progress/ And most importantly to give happiness to our loved ones.


it seems difficult to ever attain a state of constant happiness, atleast while one is capable of being a productive member of society in that case may be we should abandon the search for happiness.
helping others always gives a immense pleasure..a wonderful feeling of satisfaction.


Different people seek their happiness in different things>>> Businessman seeks it in money/ Celebrity seeks it in fame/ Swami seeks it in solitude.......


I have found my happiness in simple pleasures : ) i am capable of attaining infinite bliss, of sustaining that ammmmaZing sensation of ecstasy.. i glimpse now and then while wrapped in my lover's arms..it makes me believe that happiness is REAL... it exists in some way for everyone of us, we have to realize it..and search for it. if not, then what's the point of it all? what is there to live if not for happiness ? if not for love?
" If i could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck,
The warmth of your lips on my cheeks,
The touch of your fingers on my skin,
And the feel of your heart beating with mine......
Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than YOU."